I’ve always known I think differently than most people. It has been jarringly obvious in so many areas. But I was also surrounded by strange thinking people in my youth, so it was usually allowed and encouraged, until it got frustrating.
I learned early I had to work harder than everyone else. I really didn’t mind. I loved studying and figuring things out on my own. Always curious. Always observing. Always missing what everyone else was getting.
This current phase of my life comes with its own style of strange brain. A dystopian reality is hard enough to exist in. Now I have to adjust my coping skills, self-care routines, parenting level, and plan my next career as well!
My life philosophy is mostly to make a few plans, do some research, then follow the flow of life, reassess, and begin again. The less I fight the universe, the better life seems to work out. Usually. I can’t account for loved ones who still struggle against the flow.
This sounds great on paper, but can drive loved ones crazy. I need the right set of circumstances to accomplish certain tasks. Knowing this, I have fiddled with my schedule until I found one that gives me windows where these circumstances are possible regularly. Phone call days require lots of rest before and after. The hardest task I have.
As I come out of recovery from an exhausting illness, I have to start getting back on track with all my responsibilities and plans. Spring is on its way and I’m ready to start some yard projects that are long overdue!
Most importantly, I’ve stopped shaming myself and being angry about my style of operation. This is the brain I’ve got and it just works differently. When I let go of judgement and show myself compassionate encouragement, I get a lot more done. Allowing myself to rest when I need it has been powerful.
The Accidental Domestic Goddess 