On the surface it sounds simple enough. Just pick up the phone and do it. But it’s so much more complicated than that. First, I need a script. I have a tendency to freeze when I panic, or forget everything as soon as the other person says “hello”. So I will practice what I needContinue reading “It’s Not Just Making a Phone Call”
Category Archives: Random Musings
I’m Doing It
It’s that time of year again. I’m getting myself organized and trying to check things off my ‘to do’ list that have been mounting the anxiety attacks as they sat unattended. First, make a list. It may sound silly, but actually making the list has been more than I can bear. So I decided toContinue reading “I’m Doing It”
Sporadic
I know my posts are really inconsistent. Every time life gets really hard I tend to bow out of anything that isn’t necessary. I conserve my energy. I spend my days off hibernating to make it through my busy days. My husband has found work. We’re pretty happy about that. It was down to aContinue reading “Sporadic”
“What would you do with a free afternoon?”
“What would you do with a free afternoon?” We wax philosophically with each other. “Read a book.” “Take a bath, or maybe a nap.” “I could get that corner cleaned up. It’s been nagging at me for a while.” “I would watch what I want, without worry of interruption.” “I could solve the world’s problemsContinue reading ““What would you do with a free afternoon?””
Thoughts On Gender
This is my lap at the moment. Something that usually brings me a calming joy. It’s been rough lately. I’ve finished some knitting side quests and am trying to focus on my daughter’s sweater now. I was reading a comforting murder mystery, but my mood has shifted with the world’s turmoil and I’m back toContinue reading “Thoughts On Gender”
Time For Something a bit Drastic
This is pretty major for me. I’ve had short hair before. I’ve colored it red many times in various shades. It’s been black with lots of purple and some blue. A reddish purple that blended out to red. It was even pink for a few days in Switzerland. I could fill a book with allContinue reading “Time For Something a bit Drastic”
Seriously Anxiety!
I’ve taken a few more days off from working out than I had been planning. My mom’s visits usually do that. But now I’m suffering the consequences. Today’s anxiety is sort of like an unexplained dread. I’m starting a new adventure (I am taking on a second massage job) and the great unknown is unnerving.Continue reading “Seriously Anxiety!”
Knitting Away Anxiety
Today was spent choking on my anxiety. There were things I wanted to do. Projects I wanted to make progress on. A lawn that needs mowed. A house that needs cleaned. I tried to just rest and not let all my to-do’s swallow me, but I wasn’t very successful. I played Sims on my phone,Continue reading “Knitting Away Anxiety”
Color Therapy
Everyone has been a bit frayed lately. This has been a rather gloomy winter after some really difficult years. Stress fatigue is setting in hard. So I pulled out my coloring book and picked up where I left off on this page. I’ve been ping ponging between feeling really grounded and centered, and almost completelyContinue reading “Color Therapy”
It’s Been a While
I have been regularly writing posts. I swear. They’re just all in my head. My mind and my body have been so restless I spend most of my time wandering around taking care of this or that in order to relax and then run out of time to do so. Because of the restlessness, myContinue reading “It’s Been a While”