Today was a day. I wouldn’t say it was a bad day. More like just a perfect summary of my life at the moment.
Our car has needed a lot of repairs recently. It did this crazy scary limp mode thing, which basically cuts your ability to do anything but limp along. I live in the mountains. We can’t limp anywhere.
We changed the fuses. Problem solved!
For two days. Then we changed the engine coils. Problem solved!
For a few days. Then we tried engine cleaner.
A few more days later it’s the fuel injector. The one that takes three hours of labor to replace. I got an oil change while they had it.
No more limp mode, but a few days later we’ve got the engine light on again. New air filter. Better, but still not the issue. Gaskets are up next.
Meanwhile I’ve been borrowing my mom’s car when she’s in town (which was twice through all of this). Now we’re borrowing my mother-in-law’s beater. A 90-something Nissan. It’s been a trip. I’m grateful for it. I appreciate the help.
And this was the ongoing story in June that has bled into July while the rest of our life is still happening.
So, today. Get up early and drive everybody everywhere. I get to work feeling ok. I get set up, am all ready and then waited. As I’m waiting, my anxiety starts creeping. The panic coming up to the surface. I can hold on, if I can just start my day.
Nope. No call. No show. Sometimes we can fill the slot that quick, but no luck today. Fine. It’s fine. I’ll just run up to Barnes & Noble and buy a book to soothe my troubled spirit.
Turn the borrowed car on and remembered I needed gas. Get to the gas station and I don’t have my card. My husband still has it. I have two dollars on me. Gas light on. I just lost it. That’s it. I can’t. I bawled as I drove to a small, quiet park.
My husband called. The card is in my pants at home. I’m crying. He reminds me I can go to my bank for money. Oh yeah. He talked to me until I calmed down. I still had enough time to get to the bank and back to work for what should have been my second appointment.
At the bank, I patiently wait in line for a teller. I need two forms of ID. My check book with matching address and expired Target card (explains why it didn’t work the other day) aren’t good enough to back up my driver’s license. Besides, who doesn’t have a credit card? Me. It’s me.
So the teller asks the manager to show me how to use my bank app to use the atm. Great. I pull up my app and nothing is working. I’m trying to press any button. He’s trying to press any button. It may have been the humidity.
“This is my fucking life right now.”
I log out and log in again, while debating how inappropriate what I just said to a complete stranger was. It works and I get some money and thank the kind gentleman for his help, hoping he has a good day.
Basically it’s real mixed. Disasters, mishaps, sunshine, and sweet moments. Mostly it’s all ok. Just these few important and expensive wrenches coming at us. And the world’s on fire.
I made it back to work with plenty of time. My next two clients did arrive. A regular and a repeat. The rest of the day was fine. It was hot. The car was hot. No A/C. Humidity was very sticky. I was in the car for almost four hours by the time I was done running all of us around. And I did fill up the tank after work.
But it’s fine. We’re all fine here. Yep. We’re good.
(I got myself two books the next day).


























