Hot Flashes in the Morning

There’s nothing like getting yourself ready in the morning, only to start stripping while wrestling clothes off and on your kid for school. Then walking around topless to cool off before the neighbor kid comes over to get a ride. Sheesh. Then I spend the rest of the day in a body on the vergeContinue reading “Hot Flashes in the Morning”

Muscle Memory

It’s a wild sensation to feel your body sliding back into place. To feel the jutted and stacked posture and have your whole body go, “oh no, darling, let’s just tidy you back up.” And then you realign your spine and joints, and it feels so good! Because you CAN realign yourself! I’ve gone backContinue reading “Muscle Memory”

Coping with my Brain

I’ve always known I think differently than most people. It has been jarringly obvious in so many areas. But I was also surrounded by strange thinking people in my youth, so it was usually allowed and encouraged, until it got frustrating. I learned early I had to work harder than everyone else. I really didn’tContinue reading “Coping with my Brain”

Something Needs to Change

While January is the month where I batten down the hatches and do my best to get through, February seems to be when I pay for that survival with mild depression and a yearning to change my circumstances. It’s time to make some plans and take better care of myself. Both yoga and Tai ChiContinue reading “Something Needs to Change”

Cooking Again

When I find myself stuck and feeling overwhelmed, I begin to plan. It can take a few days, or a few weeks to get there, but it’s often my first step to getting unstuck. Breakfast for dinner wasn’t part of the plan, but I don’t make a plan expecting to follow it. I make aContinue reading “Cooking Again”

Wednesday Anxiety

It never fails. Every Wednesday my anxiety skyrockets and puts me in a chokehold. No matter the tasks I accomplish, or the ones I don’t, I’m smothered under the weight of it. Sometimes it’s the weight of all the things I need to do. Other times, it’s the fear that I must be missing somethingContinue reading “Wednesday Anxiety”

Take the Quiet When You Can

I always look towards my days off as an endless expanse of time in which all my goals can be accomplished. Even if in small doses. Then these days arrive and I am met with a very different experience. I am met with much decompressing. I set out to spend at least an hour aContinue reading “Take the Quiet When You Can”

Facing Yourself

When you are forced to take a good look at what you’ve been doing to yourself for years, it is anything but comfortable. Knowing I was doing my best helps a little. Realizing what that best was up against is validating and heart wrenching. I’ve always hated being treated as a damsel, unless I’ve decidedContinue reading “Facing Yourself”