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One Week

It’s been just over one week since we left. One week without him and we are doing so well. The kids are really blooming. Opening up. Feeling free. They’re taking on responsibilities willingly. Helping each other out. I felt like going through old journals. Show the kids a bit of what I was like atContinue reading “One Week”

Did Not See That Coming

I’m still in the thick of it. The wild whirl of tasks and appointments crowding daily life. Processing evolving information and feelings. I made a very big change. A change I have every right to talk about, but it’s so big, and so fresh, I’m not sure I’m comfortable enough to be specific. I knewContinue reading “Did Not See That Coming”

Your Parent’s Family

I’m really struggling with some heavily layered emotions right now. My dad’s youngest sister passed a month or so ago. My great aunt from my dad’s mother passed. My grandfather just passed the other day. My first cousin once removed (my dad’s cousin, aka uncle cousin) has recently started reaching out, which I’m delighted about.Continue reading “Your Parent’s Family”

Nostalgia Movies

Thanks to an unexpected change in our evening plans, I wound up at the public library with my oldest who reminded me of their DVD collection. So I borrowed a couple. Last night I watched Little Women. My husband played his game and would pause to watch me watch the movie. I sit and stareContinue reading “Nostalgia Movies”

Cozy Comforts

As Fall weather has begun teasing us at the end of August, I’m trying to get another sweater done before the season really starts. I’m using a pattern from a magazine featuring 90’s style knits (with just a few creative changes). Legends and Lattes by Travis Baldree has me in the mood for a bigContinue reading “Cozy Comforts”

Beans and Planning

Another day of hardly tackling any tasks. I took devices until the kids took care of their chores from yesterday. Chores got done quickly. I did some dishes. I got a corner more clear in the youngest’s mess of a bedroom (I got about half the room done a week ago). I caught up onContinue reading “Beans and Planning”

Need to Focus -Book!

I need to read. I’m editing my first novel, which is going well, and I’m having fun. But I need to read! I’m currently reading Legends and Lattes, curtesy of the public library. I’ve been hearing about it for a while now and am finally getting to it. I’m really enjoying it, but I canContinue reading “Need to Focus -Book!”

Done, Not Done

I’m sitting in that space of having finished a project, but I still have to go back and weave in the loose ends. Maybe seam a few things together. Then I’ll still have blocking to do. I did it. I finished my first book. Now I’m editing before sending it off to a friend forContinue reading “Done, Not Done”

The Second Time is Harder

Raising kids has never been an easy task. I want to write something deeply profound about my experience. I’m so tired. We sat in that stripped bare room again. No bags allowed. Sat and waited for them to find a place to send her. They’re all struggling. They’re all in therapy. It’s hard. It’s relentless.Continue reading “The Second Time is Harder”

Appearances

I might look like a carefree middle-aged woman enjoying good music, relaxing on a hot Sunday, and I am, but it’s not just that. This is what the hard work for my mental health looks like. Music therapy to combat the anxiety. The thing that’s keeping me from thoroughly cleaning the back hallway to avoidContinue reading “Appearances”