Raising kids has never been an easy task. I want to write something deeply profound about my experience. I’m so tired. We sat in that stripped bare room again. No bags allowed. Sat and waited for them to find a place to send her. They’re all struggling. They’re all in therapy. It’s hard. It’s relentless.Continue reading “The Second Time is Harder”
Tag Archives: mental health
Appearances
I might look like a carefree middle-aged woman enjoying good music, relaxing on a hot Sunday, and I am, but it’s not just that. This is what the hard work for my mental health looks like. Music therapy to combat the anxiety. The thing that’s keeping me from thoroughly cleaning the back hallway to avoidContinue reading “Appearances”
Goose Frabba
A few years ago, I found myself saying this phrase every time I needed to quickly diffuse my anger. It works every time. I giggle, take a few relaxed breaths, and handle things. Today was a day I wish I had remembered that phrase. There is a big personality that is making work difficult forContinue reading “Goose Frabba”
Chore Sticks
Every few months, almost every shift in season, we seem to need a new approach to the chore chart. I’ve created many variations over the years to help keep the kids following it without much fuss. I’m too tired from my anxiety to create a rotating weekly schedule (to keep tasks fairly distributed amongst threeContinue reading “Chore Sticks”
Heartstopper Volume Four
I don’t know what to say about this volume. I read it in two sections and read This Winter and Solitaire in between. That way the story’s timeline sort of pans out. Nick is so wonderful in trying to support his boyfriend. I love how close he is with his mom and her honesty withContinue reading “Heartstopper Volume Four”
This Winter
Well that was wonderful. I hadn’t planned on reading it in a day, but I did. In fact, I read Heartstopper earlier today, stopping in Volume Four to read this. I liked getting each kid’s perspective on the day. Starting with Tori, early in the morning, we get an introduction to life in the SpringContinue reading “This Winter”
Wednesday Anxiety
It never fails. Every Wednesday my anxiety skyrockets and puts me in a chokehold. No matter the tasks I accomplish, or the ones I don’t, I’m smothered under the weight of it. Sometimes it’s the weight of all the things I need to do. Other times, it’s the fear that I must be missing somethingContinue reading “Wednesday Anxiety”
Getting Things Done
Because life is beating me up and I’m pretty tired of taking it, I’m trying to tackle the backlog of projects that are obstructing my progress. I’m also encouraging my husband to start getting more involved around the house again to get him feeling better able to handle our stress. While he whacked all ourContinue reading “Getting Things Done”
Facing Yourself
When you are forced to take a good look at what you’ve been doing to yourself for years, it is anything but comfortable. Knowing I was doing my best helps a little. Realizing what that best was up against is validating and heart wrenching. I’ve always hated being treated as a damsel, unless I’ve decidedContinue reading “Facing Yourself”
Knitting Away Anxiety
It began yesterday evening and has steadily climbed to a full anxiety attack that greeted me this morning. The best I can do is ride it out and keep myself as calm as possible. I rarely have panic attacks these days. As long as I’m handling life ok I don’t have them. Anxiety and anxietyContinue reading “Knitting Away Anxiety”
The Accidental Domestic Goddess 